2003-07-25 01:18:26
So, I was on the marcy playground web site as I so often am lately. The web site itself never gets updated, but there is a bulletin board set up where members can post whatever they’re thinking about the band, or life, or anything else for that matter. I’m not a member, I just like logging on and reading what people have to say. I guess its strange the way everyone copes with having to wait for something that they’re truly looking forward to, like a new CD from a favorite band. Some people like to post their feelings, others just like to be a voyeur into those feelings without sharing their own.
The lead singer and songwriter for Marcy Playground has been making a lot of posts to the site as of late, and posed the question to the other members regarding the music that they all liked, but feel sinful for liking. Be it shallow or pop or whatever. In thinking about the question I realized today that I have become an utter snob when it comes to music. I am not ashamed of what I listen to, because what I listen to (In my own mind’s eye) is great and meaningful. I think back, however, to types of music that I may be interested in but because of the fear of comprimising my snobbishness I just abandon altogether. It kind of disgusted me in some way to think that I’d drop something because its too popular or not meaningful enough. I suppose its just something that got me thinking.
On a dreary note, I realized today that I can’t stand my job and dread ever going back again. I’m beginning the massive amount of paperwork required to begin substitute teaching, but the process cannot go quickly enough. Thinking about my work makes me want to cry.
Two things I would change about my life:
1) How far I am from my friends
2) My job